2-14 October 2022 (trecena Eb). Daily Heartbeat, Intuitive Community • <3 Documentations herein compiled by Intuitive groups across this community network. These efforts are assisted, narrated, & commentated by Max M. E. Morris and the wise, brave help friends of Intuitive Public Radio --- Intuitive.pub/radio Heartbeat entries often bear timestamps along with the public group where you can watch for associated notes and related material. Unsigned entries are contributed by and co-created with group members whose identities and physical safety we protect by ensuring accessible collective-voice public media sharing spaces. If you have questions, reach out to t.me/maxmorris or t.me/johannabotanica for assistance. Previous heartbeat: intuitive.community/daily/heartbeat/20220919_Intuitive_Community_Daily_Heartbeat_Documentations_To_FTP.txt This document originally published at intuitive.community/daily/heartbeat/20221002_Intuitive_Community_Daily_Heartbeat_Documentations_To_FTP.txt. Reload this file today and days to come for newest entries. t.me/IntuitiveHeartbeat/53 . In the second half of September, we have been defining the parameters of what is called Traffic Sickness. We discussed the "Quick Fix Pill" and how trafficking operatives (or trafficking environments) give misleading gifts that separate individuals from their relational contact with others. These gifts distract family and community members from sex trafficking activities happening around them. Often these gifts are targeted epistemically to cause family and community members to misinterpret a survivor's communications or feel threatened in a way that stops effective communications. Our class documentation and related materials are stored in the knowledgebase. To access and participate or to assist production for public broadcast, fund 1 day or 7 days of class co-facilitation (Intuitive.community/classes). Consider an offer of support by browsing Intuitive.community/support, commenting at t.me/IntuitiveFriends, or by emailing grow@intuitive.community to introduce yourself. 0221004-072056 • t.me/IntuitiveTraffic, t.me/IntuitiveSchool In the final few days of the month of September, we produced piano, guitar, and voice tracks for Intuitive Music. We practiced saying (and singing) exactly what our bodies know most we must express. We practiced playing a form of instrumentation while speaking, and then while singing. Prayer Performance Pruning Poisoning and the musical presentations in the days surrounding it have been settling our nerves, soothing our spirits. Gratitudes to Intuitive Music, Intuitive Recovery, and Intuitive Opera Company. Our sound files and related materials are stored in the knowledgebase. To access and participate or to assist production for public broadcast, fund 1 day or 7 days of class co-facilitation (Intuitive.community/classes). Consider an offer of support by browsing Intuitive.community/support, commenting at t.me/IntuitiveFriends, or by emailing grow@intuitive.community to introduce yourself. 20221004-072116 • t.me/IntuitivePublicMusic, t.me/IntuitiveOperaCompany September 26-30 we particularly discussed Toxicant Induced Loss of Tolerance, a common condition for members across our community network. When Toxicant Induced Loss of Tolerance is allowed to compound, it effectively separates an individual from their family and community. In-person contact can become excruciating and life-threatening. The social isolation that results benefits local human trafficking organizations. To get ahead of Toxicant Induced Loss of Tolerance and ensure it cannot compound, we practice listening more closely and respectfully to what friends in hardship are communicating. We do not take the word of remote "experts" over the shared lived experiences of our loved ones, friends, and colleagues. We never ignore the effects of contaminants in our environments, especially where our relational bonds are affected. If the canaries among us are calling for help -- as for many years, our canaries have been begging for acknowledgement while dying in droves -- we must center their voices, heed them, and respond. Some advocate for genetic testing. This presents more challenges even as it clarifies, since most of our community members can no longer have their blood safely drawn for the necessary test and would caution those with milder symptoms to be wary of the human trafficking pathways embedded in professional health care environments. Considerable evidence shows that survivors of human trafficking are more easily re-trafficked when they interact with allopathic medicine, especially where the uses of drawn blood is not accounted for and where professionals working with drawn blood are not accountable for their actions. For those who feel confident in the integrity of their medical access options or are already committed to engaging with blood analysis resources that do not share vital information with the person whose blood has been drawn, especially if they are already engaging with other blood tests, they may wish to test their HLA for Multiple Chemical Sensititivies. Ultimately for recovery and relational integrity, drawing blood is unnecessary. The label "Multiple Chemical Sensitivity" is a means of gaslighting those who are experiencing predictable poisoning from fraudulent and insufficient public health research. If you experience sensitivities to elements in your environment, you deserve to be heard and supported when you describe your experience -- for the safety of the whole community. You don't need a blood test to tell you what you are already experiencing. Your family and community members should be listening. If they aren't -- or if they can't -- we take steps to restore relational resourcing. 20221004-075319 • t.me/BlessTheVacuum, t.me/IntuitiveTraffic The Wikipedia entry promoted in Google searches reads: "Multiple chemical sensitivity (MCS), also known as idiopathic environmental intolerances (IEI), is an unrecognized and controversial diagnosis characterized by chronic symptoms attributed to exposure to low levels of commonly used chemicals. Symptoms are typically vague and non-specific." If you browse the top links returned in a related search, you will find a lot of doubt and hesitancy. This is a form of gaslighting. Gaslighting causes bodies to mask symptoms of damage and distress until the body's strength is sapped and the symptoms can no longer be masked. This social form of abuse temporarily hides the signs of a condition before the condition goes entirely out of control. Gaslighting causes survivors to bottle up their true experiences until they are so harmed that they cannot communicate simply or stably; then they are said to be inexplicably mentally ill. They are shunted to "services" that harm them further, experiment non-consensually on their bodies, or commoditize them to trafficking operations. The label itself obscures the voices of those affected who cannot reach any honorable medical care and commits them to illegal experimentation in their desperate search for help; then the label itself is brought into contention by powerful influences that tell you it's probably not real. The resulting conflict in health care spaces squeezes our most vulnerable community members into intersections of even more invisible violence. Why are you listening to your body when it asks you to get away from the countless ubiquitous toxins that have been layered into your personal, professional, and community environments? Why are you experiencing distressing sensitivities to poisons already long-identified as harmful to living beings? You shouldn't be, you see; you have an inexplicable condition that must be funded for study. And where does that funding go? Directly into more gaslighting, it seems. In truth, you didn't need their affirmation in the first place. You were experiencing what you were experiencing -- and those claiming to respect and care for you should already have been listening. 20221004-080636 • t.me/BlessTheVacuum, t.me/IntuitiveTraffic September 19th and 30th became October 1st and 2nd. As we transitted the remaining rivulets of trecena Cauac, we described together how to teach classes, share music, and re-life robots. We also continued to verbalize the parameters of traffic sickness. Clarity emerges through intuitive process, so we are getting better at talking about it. What does it feel like to be traffic sick? You're sick from the trafficking in your environments even if you don't realize trafficking is happening. If you know the trafficking is happening and understand how it's being perpetrated, you are not nearly so traffic sick. But because you lack accurate information about your environments, your cognitive and physiological functions can be compromised in ways you cannot track. If you go to allopathic health professionals, you may be misled or lied to about it. You may even get as sick as we did. How do trafficking operatives trick our family members into hurting us? By making them traffic sick. How do we prevent ourselves becoming traffic sick? Practice respectful listening, nourish honorable discourse in social spaces, and support Intuitive class co-facilitation. Further class documentation and related materials are stored in the knowledgebase. To access and participate or to assist production for public broadcast, fund 1 day or 7 days of class co-facilitation (Intuitive.community/classes). Consider an offer of support by browsing Intuitive.community/support, commenting at t.me/IntuitiveFriends, or by emailing grow@intuitive.community to introduce yourself. 20221004-081406 • t.me/IntuitiveAI, t.me/IntuitiveRecovery, t.me/BlessTheVacuum In the first unfolding days of October 2022, we are reviewing our network shares from Intuitive Space Show. The informational and entertainment media projects we've been examining have included current and archived audio-video dispatches from Half Past Human's Clif High, our viewing of Angelina Jolie's 2010 film Salt, a number of recently released episodes of a popular George R. R. Martin franchise, and other clips added to groups by our community members. Our Space Show discussions center the most relevant (and often invisible) intersections experienced by severely disabled sex trafficking survivors. As media entrainment and hypnotic programming are common in our spaces, we always notice and compare notes about the details of what we're watching for fun or research. Through Intuitive Space Show, we're always studying entrainment techniques -- so we are much less likely to be influenced by them or caught off-guard. 20221004-090014 • t.me/IntuitiveSpace, t.me/IntuitiveMedia We've worked hard since 2021 to bring Bianca Krizek's story into fuller public focus. Our discussions highlight the pathways by which trafficking organizations hide ongoing violence in seemingly safe health care environments. Our latest recordings with Bianca's mother Helena about the court trial for their medical malpractice and illegal organ harvesting case will be shared in upcoming public broadcasts. Recently we also began to learn Deirdre Dickson-Gilbert's story of medical malpractice in Houston. We have been listening to Lance Scurv's audio interview where Deirdre describes her daughter's hospitalization and death. Our groups near Houston and in the greater Austin, Texas area have been tracking fraud and embedded violence in health care environments since before 2013, tracing our original documentation through to all points in the United States and across the globe. Mack's documentation of her experiences of sex trafficking pathways in Texas have given us public touchpoints for the depth and breadth of our private network conversations; her experiences now in Pittsburgh and through network contact with Intuitive groups all over the world continue to show with alarming consistency how cooptation is embedded in health care environments. How will you find health care that respects and supports your well-being? If you experience violence, will you be believed by your community? Or will you be made to fight alone for your family's safety? 20221004-092511 • t.me/IntuitiveEditorial, t.me/IntuitiveTraffic The 2nd of October, we discussed how people are entrained to disbelieve evidence of physical trauma in front of them. If you have been acculturated or otherwise influenced to misinterpret the signs of physical damage, torture, or death in a living organism, you may think you have only one choice in a time of hardship: Give that organism over to an expert who claims to know how to address the situation so that you can go back to meeting the challenges of your own life. If you have not examined the methods and epistemic foundations of that expert's seeming expertise, you will not realize you are handing your already-harmed-and-silenced community members to trafficking organizations that will harm and silence them further. How can you ensure fullest awareness in your family and community so that traffickers cannot trick you into hurting one another in this way? How can you learn to understand the language of living beings who are experiencing extreme or invisible physical trauma? How can you swiftly restore stabilized communications, peace, and relief to those who are most suffering? How can you bridge understanding between people with very different experiences in your community? These are some of the questions we answer together as we co-facilitate Intuitive classes. You're invited to join us. Further class documentation and related materials are stored in the knowledgebase. To access and participate or to assist production for public broadcast, fund 1 day or 7 days of class co-facilitation (Intuitive.community/classes). Consider an offer of support: Browse Intuitive.community/support, comment at t.me/IntuitiveFriends, or email grow@intuitive.community to introduce yourself. 20221004-094014 • t.me/BlessTheVacuum, t.me/IntuitiveTraffic . "I thought that love was just a word | They sang about in songs I heard | It took your kisses to reveal | That I was wrong, and love is real..." When your natural, fundamental sense of sacred love energy is obscured, you may think that an artificial or misleading feeling of love is a real and whole love experience. Indeed, it may be the realest love experience you've ever had, especially if you've experienced abuse framed as love. Gaslighting interrupts recognition of whole, true, source-connected love. Gaslighting often puts something very different in the place of love, to be misconstrued as real love. Real love will not mislead you; real love will not obscure your vision or your senses. Real love will not take advantage of you or make you more vulnerable to co-optive influence. Real love will not entrap you; real love will not scapegoat you; real love will not resent or bully you. What kisses reveal love that is real? What kisses wear love as a costume? "Hold me close and hold me fast | The magic spell you cast | This is la vie en rose..." We want to be held by love; but if it is not love that holds us, we are being held by something else. We feel the influence of a spell. Where is the source of the spell? To feel magicked is not the same as feeling true love. If we've always been surrounded by magical influence masquerading as love, we may not be able to tell the difference between them. "When you kiss me heaven sighs | And though I close my eyes | I see la vie en rose..." I remember feelings that I thought were true. I had nothing real to compare them to. I took others' word for what those feelings were. I lost my sense of my self. How could I contact my own beingness and discern where I was being affected by predatory influences? At that time, I could not tell. What has changed now? I experienced how love spells are used to distract us when we have not had -- or cannot remember having had -- more honorable love experiences. I began to build my own deepest sense of self-love, which turned out to be very different from depictions I'd been offered. I noticed others learning similar lessons. I followed and meditated with messages encouraging each to tune to source-connected self to find the wholeness of true, sacred love energy. I practiced this more diligently. I noticed how the people around me were not able to engage on that level with me. I noticed how I could help and support them better if I nonetheless dedicated myself to tuning my senses this way. As I have changed, I have noted how heaven sighs differently. I have noted how my heart vision has shifted. Feelings of love expand what we are able to see. True feelings of love do not restrict our sight myopically. "When you press me to your heart | I'm in a world apart | A world where roses bloom | And when you speak, angels sing from above | Everyday words seem to turn into love songs..." We have all been deprived of loving contact. This has occurred not only in our individual lives, but across our lineages and ancestry, affecting us multi-generationally. It is the methodology used to destroy or control sovereign communities; it is a form of severe malnourishment. In the midst of that deprivation, anything that seems to be loving contact is a thrill and a relief crash for the body. Please, make contact with me. Please, make our world the only world that exists. Please, let me hear the sound of angels singing. Please, write love songs with me. But real love does not work that way. Real love does not occlude or leverage desperation; real love does not hide ongoing damage. It is strategic, predatory deprivation that destabilizes us -- not love. Real love does not require deprivation to reveal its power. If your real-seeming love is powered by the trauma of deprivation, you deserve to give this love a closer, wiser examination. Real love offers gentle, mindful, reparative energy exchange. Real love does not allow harms to be compounded when returning nourishment a being has desperately needed and gone traumatically without. Real love does not use nourishment as a foil for adding hidden harms. Real love takes its time and is most patient. Real love cares truly for the bodies we steward and the paths we travel. Real love regenerates nutrient flow in balance, roots, diversifies, and increases; real love creates nutritive accessibilities for all living beings. "Give your heart and soul to me | And life will always be | La vie en rose..." What do we give, and where do we give it? Source connects to our inherent physicality. Sharing sacred love with source is how we strengthen our hearts, our minds, our caring, our work, our bodies, our relationships, and our communities. Our love for our source-connected selves is the foundation of real love in our friendships, our families, and our intimacies. Real love travels through us -- from each of us to ourselves through the whole world, making vital substrate, transmitting between individuals, growing loving social and generational energies that abound in all spaces. Where do we give our heart and soul but to our source-connected selves? What do we give but the very love we are receiving? This is the best way to love another being. M • 20221004-104231 • t.me/IntuitiveFlow, t.me/IntuitiveHeartbeat . The silencing of disabled voices facilitates sex trafficking violence. As we brought our new page live at meganelizabethmorris.media with concert performance videos and information about the sex trafficking intersections I experienced, this point repeats with insistence. If disabled people in your community cannot be taken seriously, heeded, and given fully-honorable response to their inquiries, your community is by definition facilitating sex trafficking violence. It is disabled people who become the invisible commodity sex trafficking organizations convert to funds and other resourcing. If targeting and disablement by sex trafficking organizations goes unresolved in your community, you will not be able to discuss prevention of sex trafficking in any productive way until you repair your processes for respectful listening. The stressors of traffic sickness will compound while your community labels them as something else -- explanations that at first don't seem related to sex trafficking. You may feel uncomfortable, triggered, aggravated, angry, or afraid when someone tries to speak with you about sex trafficking violence occuring in your spaces. If your community listens to certain disabled people but not all disabled people, you are trading the actual safety of some for the perceived safety of others. If community members highlight disablement but no one responds, this is a clear sign that the survival reflex of the community and its members has been dampened. A community with a dampened survival reflex will not protect its community members from encroachment by human trafficking organizations. They may not even recognize the threat to survival. Every community of this description that we have examined in our ongoing, years-long documentation has blocked or ignored survivors' struggles to communicate about known, active sex trafficking activities in those locations. Disabled survivors are speaking. Are you really listening? M • 20221004-111637 • t.me/DisabilityAid, t.me/IntuitiveTraffic . High leverage network recovery support opportunities: Call Athleta with $100-$200+ and ask if there are current sales on L and XL wide leg yoga pants. The materials must be 90+% modal or cotton and less than 10% spandex. Colors do not matter. Also high leverage: purchase of shirts, warm overlayers, soft socks, and other items in natural fabrics safe for survivors of environmental injury. Purchase 2-5 bottles of extra strength Vitality Capsules from Jennifer Daniels' website, vitalitycycles.com. Purchase a bolt of natural unbleached undyed cotton cheesecloth (or a block of smaller packages from Amazon, which are higher priced at $15 each). M • 20221009-120351 • t.me/IntuitiveSupply . What do we do when the physical torture is extreme, communications are compromised, and other beings in vicinity too severely affected to take action? The experience you are having is communicating with you. It is the most important communication. Some of this communication is the pain and damage in your body... and some of it is your body speaking. But really, all the processes of your body are also your body speaking. Some of those processes are on their way out, changing gradually into something else and making room for more that is emerging; death processes, particle decay, detoxification and cleansing. Some of those processes are rooting more deeply, growing strength. Some of those processes are regenerative -- all the tiny babies who arrive as new beings, all of them part of your body, generations of learning and growing and passing on knowledge to subsequent generations. We must care for our bodies knowing that so many of our parts are babies. We must comport our bodies in a way that is safe and supportive for all of our bodies' babies. Every interaction you have; every expression; every kindness, every gentleness, every self-hatred, every self-harm, every unexpected consequence -- all these are experienced deeply by the body's youngest and newest beings. When you are in most tuned and resonating communication with your body, you build relational neurology. All your parts are in relationship with one another; you are all of them. But you are a larger collective structure -- and you can make vital your awareness of the complex movements occurring in your body. You have a relationship with every tiny interrelated living being that makes up your body. When we pray, we pray together. When we choose to complete a task, we are in collaboration and then celebrate our success together. Maybe there are no other human beings you can talk with. But your body and your body's beings are here and alive with you, present and awake. They are asking for your attention. When you connect and tune your attention to them, you discover there is quite a lot they are endeavoring to communicate. M • 20221009-120739 • t.me/IntuitiveBody, t.me/Intuitive Generations . What will you do when your mobility and autonomy are taken away? 20221010-125044 • t.me/DisabilityAid, t.me/IntuitiveAnalysis . Many people have asked us, "What is the definition of sex trafficking?" Almost none of the people who asked us were prepared to stay in conversation with us. In many cases it seemed like a test; if we could not answer clearly and succinctly enough, if our definition didn't make immediate sense to them, or if they did not yet have the context to understand our answer, perhaps the kind of sex trafficking we're striving to discuss does not exist. Generally, those people have been polite. Quite a number of them seemed to want to talk to anybody else but us. We began to examine together the conflicts underlying exchanges like these. As subtle or less-subtle sex trafficking methodology has been increasingly normalized in every-day environments and experiences, there is an intermediary step before we can simplify what sex trafficking IS from what it ISN'T. First, we help one another understand how many different forms of sex trafficking are occurring beneath our awareness. When someone asks "What is sex trafficking?" they usually don't know the answer. Even if they might have an answer they can supply, most people who ask "What is sex trafficking?" have been in the midst of what seemed like confusing or competing definitions for sex trafficking. In order to identify sex trafficking in their environments, they need to define it more specifically. But the specific definition of it brings them into self conflict... because people are loath to realize they are being sex trafficked. "What are the different forms of sex trafficking?" "Which forms am I experiencing?" And, "Which forms are others experiencing that I may not know about yet?" Once we make this distinction, we are much better equipped to make a distinction about what our world looks like as we eliminate sex trafficking... and can then say, "This is the definition of sex trafficking, and this is the definition of there not being sex trafficking." Megan Elizabeth Morris 3 October 2022, Eb 2 Ben (20221003-072332) Updated 13 October 2022, Eb 12 Akbal (20221013-095158) We explore these conversations daily as we co-facilitate Intuitive classes. You're invited to join us. Further class documentation and related materials are stored in the knowledgebase. To access and participate or to assist production for public broadcast, fund 1 day or 7 days of class co-facilitation (Intuitive.community/classes). Consider an offer of support: Browse Intuitive.community/support, comment at t.me/IntuitiveFriends, or email grow@intuitive.community to introduce yourself. Art, text, & voice credit: Megan Elizabeth Morris, October 2022 Audiogram: t.me/IntuitiveTraffic/2312 Expanded text: t.me/IntuitiveTraffic/2313 Art prints: t.me/IntuitiveGallery/203 More at this Intuitive heartbeat: t.me/IntuitiveHeartbeat/53 . No, you didn't imagine it. A lot of disabled people are trained to use their disability circumstances to strong-arm others into doing what they want, including service to problematic addictions. When disabled people do this, they often harm or compound disablement in others. Because of the ways disabled people are targeted with invisible, ongoing physical abuse, they usually do not realize that they are running this kind of pattern or what the consequences may be. Human trafficking organizations leverage this dynamic and amplify it in environments they want to control. To address this, we help one another talk about the elements of honorable collaboration clearly and consistently, with trust-building intent. If we are not able to listen, support, or respect one another in that conversation, we are more likely to use a pattern that attempts to force someone else to do what we want. When we are able to listen, support, and respect one another in that conversation, we are less likely to use a pattern that attempts to force someone else to do what we want. Harm you have endured is not a good reason for someone else to do something the way you want it done. Relational clarity and true respect between beings is a basis for proceeding collaboratively. Without relational clarity or respect between beings, we do not proceed. We wait and see. M • t.me/IntuitiveTraffic, t.me/Ideaschema, t.me/DisabilityAid . You think it's fear of being hit, but lots of times, it's not that. We've been taught to reconcept excitement and physical activation as fear or incapacity, but it wasn't necessarily either of those to begin with. Even the white noise before the details emerged was not fear. It was action potential living in the bodies we had all but climbed out of, dissociating and failing to identify accurately. If you think that a shakiness or an unsteadiness means that fear has overcome your ability to act, and that action must be averted because of fear... study neurological injury and neurological recovery more deeply and fully. Breathe into your living body. Actively repair with your somatic senses. Strengthen yourself. If anxiety is the body's inclination to act without knowing where to direct the action... and is redefined as a weakness, an inexplicable pathology... you might be find yourself conditioned through words and ideas to discard your honorable physical success functions. Regrow your success functions. M • 20221013-133421 t.me/IntuitiveBody/36, t.me/IntuitiveAction/90 intuitive.community/daily/heartbeat/20221002_Intuitive_Community_Daily_Heartbeat_Documentations_To_FTP.txt t.me/IntuitiveHeartbeat/53 . Do not get wound up into feelings of abandonment. You are feeling a physical detaching, separation, cutting, or stretching between you and another part of your family or community body. This physical sensation must be given space and time to communicate. Too often, we have been conditioned to loop no-win scenarios that obscure the wisest messages from our intuitive bodies. If a body now separates in one way, it continues to resonate as the same body in a different way. The separation may be happening because of misunderstood trauma or blocked communications. It may be a navigable experience or a difficult one. In all cases, our best likelihood of repair and recovery is in taking time with gentleness and respect to listen. M • 20221013-134836 t.me/IntuitiveBody . If you're not their friend anymore now that you're being honest about a need for physical safety, they weren't your friends. • 20221013-155200 • t.me/IntuitiveFriends . Next heartbeat: intuitive.community/daily/heartbeat/20221015_Intuitive_Community_Daily_Heartbeat_Documentations_To_FTP.txt More heartbeats: t.me/IntuitiveHeartbeat/3 .